So here I am in 2012. I'm calling this my "Year of Action". I have goals that I WILL meet.
I'm still a single mom of 4 kids, 3 at home. My goals are to get into the best shape of my life. The kind of shape that women admire and come to me for advice. The shape that women who are 42 can look at and say "I can do that too!", that makes young girls realize that the 40's aren't old and life is over but life is actually great at 40.
In the past, I've done a lot of researcher. I'm a reader, a thinker. I do tons of research then get overloaded by it all. What foods, what diet, what exercise routine. I know now that I have all the knowledge I need; what I'm lacking is ACTION. To get off the computer READING about women have accomplished their goals and hit the weights and accomplish my own!!
I started the Bodyrock.tv challenge. Great workouts, not a lot of time but soo intense. Plus I do extra weights or treadmilling and watching what I eat. I always say "Knowledge, without ACTION, is powerless!"
My 2nd goal is to become financially independent. I have some credit card debt I will get rid of. Fortunately my credit is awesome so the interest rate is 0-3%. But I want it ALL gone. Truck payment I want gone. More savings, invest, etc. I don't want to rely on childsupport. Just my own money. I'm following Dave Ramsey's plan. Again, I got the info and now I'm acting on it. Won't be easy but well worth it.
3rd goal..I want a deeper relationship with God. I want to be so full of the Holy Spirit that I glow..yep 'glow'. Thats the word that comes to my heart. So, I'm listening to podcasts (Hagee's, Joyce, Creflo, Mark Driscoll), praying more, reading Bible more. Need to worship more. Got to work on that. To discover my gift. Point is, I'm taking action.
4th I want to learn how to speak in public. I do OK, not great by any means. I want to be comfortable. I have a feeling that may be one of my gifts from God.I like to help people. I need to be able to speak to them clearly and confidently.
5th Travel more. Get me and the kids out of this Superfund Box we call our home town and explore the world. To show them there is life outside of our town. Oceans to wonder at, places that don't have mountains like we have, new faces, new food. Need money to do that, so thats where #2 comes in.
Point is, I'm taking ACTION. I made me some great vision boards on pinterest that i look at alot. I want to find my future mate too. Not out looking for him, he will show up when he is suppose to. But I'm keeping my eye out.
This is going to be a great ride...
my 3 youngest
Peek a Boo
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Life....
Life has taken such a weird turn of events; some because of my choices, some because of someone else's choice, and some just happenstance.
The good. I've been blessed with a little boy. He's 8 months old now. The sweetest little guy (until recently...blaming teething!). Usually always full of gummy, wet smiles. He was a 'whoops' baby. One that I can't imagine living without now, but still wish it would've been under different circumstances.
I guess this is what comes down as one my choices. Me and my ex's divorce was granted in 2008. Then I got pregnant with the guy I was with (a childhood friend). I was devastated. He was happy, he didn't have kids and wanted a son. I just knew that he was too selfish to want to stick around and I would end up raising him on my own. Here it is, 2010, our son is 8 months old and guess what...I'm raising him on my own. Although I suppose he would think his 10 minutes of "dad time" would be considered help in raising him, but we all know it takes a lot more than a quick fix, (or maybe its an ease of conscience?)to be a parent.
I've always wanted the family life. A husband to come home to me and the kids. My ex worked out of state for 3.5 years of our 6 year marriage. Pretty much as soon as our 2nd child was born (he's now 5). So, I was a single parent over half of our marriage. I hated it. Hated being alone..I was more lonely married than i was single. People ask "why didn't you move to where his office was?" They don't realize he was only at his office Monday morning and then gone to a different part of the state (or another state) the whole rest of the week, changing every week.
Do I miss the father of my youngest? Yeah...I loved him. But I'm realizing that I loved the IDEA of him more than the person he is. He isn't 38 and single for no reason. Heck, he just moved out of his mom's house (because of the landlord, not because of his mom...she says she misses getting up at 4 and making his lunch. I use to tell her she was the perfect wife for him. Puke). Landlord kicked him out cause he was suppose to pay extra rent and he didn't. Now living with a pothead. Nice upgrade.
He obviously had some good about him. Or I wouldn't have fallen in love. Now, here it's been 2.5 weeks and I'm still in the grieving stage. Some days I feel great. Some times I have a mini breakdown. But I guess that's to be expected after spending 2 years with someone. I often wonder...does he miss me? Or what was his family? Does he ever lay in bed at night and wonder if we are doing the right thing? Does it ever hurt him so much that it's a physical pain as well as emotional?
I hate the thoughts of starting over..dating and all that jazz. Especially having kids. I'm thinking I'm just NOT. Im a christian (yea..fell off that wagon a time or two) but am happy to say I'm back on it and strapped in nice and tight. I realize that the ONLY way I'm going to make it with me and the 4 kids is to have God on my side. He is the only faithful thing I can count on.
On a good note and totally happenstance...I have my BOSSI clothing line. Got a guy (a local newsanchor guy) who is interested in partnering with me and getting it rolling. I keep thinking "can't I do it by myself?? Do I need a partner?" I'm flattered he is impressed with it and has faith in it, I just need to pray to make sure it's the right thing to do. And of course, get an attorney!
So here I am. Single mom, 4 kids. 2 parttime jobs (laying sod, waitressing) hoping to add another job into that mix. Creator of my BOSSI clothing line. Knowing that life is short and that memories are all we are left with. Knowing that my kids are the most important part of my life and that in the long run, its them...our family...that matters most.
Lonely and sad, but hopeful and believing that this is happening for a reason and knowing, without a doubt, that not only is God paving my way, but He's got my back too.
The good. I've been blessed with a little boy. He's 8 months old now. The sweetest little guy (until recently...blaming teething!). Usually always full of gummy, wet smiles. He was a 'whoops' baby. One that I can't imagine living without now, but still wish it would've been under different circumstances.
I guess this is what comes down as one my choices. Me and my ex's divorce was granted in 2008. Then I got pregnant with the guy I was with (a childhood friend). I was devastated. He was happy, he didn't have kids and wanted a son. I just knew that he was too selfish to want to stick around and I would end up raising him on my own. Here it is, 2010, our son is 8 months old and guess what...I'm raising him on my own. Although I suppose he would think his 10 minutes of "dad time" would be considered help in raising him, but we all know it takes a lot more than a quick fix, (or maybe its an ease of conscience?)to be a parent.
I've always wanted the family life. A husband to come home to me and the kids. My ex worked out of state for 3.5 years of our 6 year marriage. Pretty much as soon as our 2nd child was born (he's now 5). So, I was a single parent over half of our marriage. I hated it. Hated being alone..I was more lonely married than i was single. People ask "why didn't you move to where his office was?" They don't realize he was only at his office Monday morning and then gone to a different part of the state (or another state) the whole rest of the week, changing every week.
Do I miss the father of my youngest? Yeah...I loved him. But I'm realizing that I loved the IDEA of him more than the person he is. He isn't 38 and single for no reason. Heck, he just moved out of his mom's house (because of the landlord, not because of his mom...she says she misses getting up at 4 and making his lunch. I use to tell her she was the perfect wife for him. Puke). Landlord kicked him out cause he was suppose to pay extra rent and he didn't. Now living with a pothead. Nice upgrade.
He obviously had some good about him. Or I wouldn't have fallen in love. Now, here it's been 2.5 weeks and I'm still in the grieving stage. Some days I feel great. Some times I have a mini breakdown. But I guess that's to be expected after spending 2 years with someone. I often wonder...does he miss me? Or what was his family? Does he ever lay in bed at night and wonder if we are doing the right thing? Does it ever hurt him so much that it's a physical pain as well as emotional?
I hate the thoughts of starting over..dating and all that jazz. Especially having kids. I'm thinking I'm just NOT. Im a christian (yea..fell off that wagon a time or two) but am happy to say I'm back on it and strapped in nice and tight. I realize that the ONLY way I'm going to make it with me and the 4 kids is to have God on my side. He is the only faithful thing I can count on.
On a good note and totally happenstance...I have my BOSSI clothing line. Got a guy (a local newsanchor guy) who is interested in partnering with me and getting it rolling. I keep thinking "can't I do it by myself?? Do I need a partner?" I'm flattered he is impressed with it and has faith in it, I just need to pray to make sure it's the right thing to do. And of course, get an attorney!
So here I am. Single mom, 4 kids. 2 parttime jobs (laying sod, waitressing) hoping to add another job into that mix. Creator of my BOSSI clothing line. Knowing that life is short and that memories are all we are left with. Knowing that my kids are the most important part of my life and that in the long run, its them...our family...that matters most.
Lonely and sad, but hopeful and believing that this is happening for a reason and knowing, without a doubt, that not only is God paving my way, but He's got my back too.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Love and friendship....
You know those crazy surveys that people send out, like on Myspace, or by email? I happen to love them and am suckered into filling out every.single.one.! But there was one question the other day that really got me thinking about some things.
The question was "Whats the worst way to tell someone you love them?"
hmmm that got me thinking. I decided that the worst way was by not telling them in the first place that I loved them.
How many times have we gone without saying "I love you" and just assumed that the other person "knew" that we did? Whether its a family member, spouse, child or friend? It also began to get me thinking about love and ways we show it. Little kids are huggers. Man, woman, young, old, they just hug. Without any reservation and totally full of love.
How come I don't hug? I love hugs! Most people do. Sometimes a person can be going thru a hard time, and just needs a hug. And I don't mean a 'church' hug. I don't like 'church' hugs! You know what I'm talking about. When each person leans over at the waist and puts an arm around you, NO BODY TOUCHING, and pats you on the back? I hate those. I mean really, why bother? If you give me a hug, I promise Im not going to jump you! Im sure they don't want to offend those of suspicious natures, but those who think like that shouldn't be giving out hugs anyways.
I remember a good friend of mine once...shes outgoing and funny. A great person. An older man who came in where we both work (at a restaurant/bar) and was a regular customer and good friend and he was moving. He did the church hug on her and she stopped him right in his tracks. Said "thats not a hug!! if you are going to give me a hug, give me a hug!" I will never forget that!!
In other countries, its normal for people to kiss each other on the lips when they greet each other hello or goodbye. And here in the U.S. we freak out over a hug. My brother in law, he hugs everyone he sees. Man, woman, old, young, he doesnt care. He hugs them. Another good friend of mine does the same.
So I decided im going to start hugging people. I want the people in my life know that I do love them. And Im going to tell them that i love them too. Because really, the worst way to say it, is not to say it at all.
The question was "Whats the worst way to tell someone you love them?"
hmmm that got me thinking. I decided that the worst way was by not telling them in the first place that I loved them.
How many times have we gone without saying "I love you" and just assumed that the other person "knew" that we did? Whether its a family member, spouse, child or friend? It also began to get me thinking about love and ways we show it. Little kids are huggers. Man, woman, young, old, they just hug. Without any reservation and totally full of love.
How come I don't hug? I love hugs! Most people do. Sometimes a person can be going thru a hard time, and just needs a hug. And I don't mean a 'church' hug. I don't like 'church' hugs! You know what I'm talking about. When each person leans over at the waist and puts an arm around you, NO BODY TOUCHING, and pats you on the back? I hate those. I mean really, why bother? If you give me a hug, I promise Im not going to jump you! Im sure they don't want to offend those of suspicious natures, but those who think like that shouldn't be giving out hugs anyways.
I remember a good friend of mine once...shes outgoing and funny. A great person. An older man who came in where we both work (at a restaurant/bar) and was a regular customer and good friend and he was moving. He did the church hug on her and she stopped him right in his tracks. Said "thats not a hug!! if you are going to give me a hug, give me a hug!" I will never forget that!!
In other countries, its normal for people to kiss each other on the lips when they greet each other hello or goodbye. And here in the U.S. we freak out over a hug. My brother in law, he hugs everyone he sees. Man, woman, old, young, he doesnt care. He hugs them. Another good friend of mine does the same.
So I decided im going to start hugging people. I want the people in my life know that I do love them. And Im going to tell them that i love them too. Because really, the worst way to say it, is not to say it at all.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Life...
Micaiah, me, mom, Mystery at the fair this year. Yummm. elephant ears! Creating a memory as I like to call it! :)
Isn't life strange? The places it takes you where you least expect it. The ups and downs. Things can be going great and BAM....something awful happens.
I've been struggling recently with death/life/sickness. Friends I have that are in their early 30's are getting cancer...they have young kids and here they are fighting for their lives. I have friends that started doing drugs in their adulthood and are now either strung out (usually meth or prescription drugs) or OD'd. Them too have young kids and here these parents are throwing their lives away! I have a friend who just tried to kill himself and he too has young kids. I have friends who lost their child to cancer.
Why does it seem that the people who love life, love their family, love to live are the ones who are dealt the lowest blows? Why are the ones who don't care about life, their children, theirselves and don't even bother taking care of themselves are the ones who continue to live? Now Im not suggesting that one life is worth more than another....wait, maybe i am!? I guess I think that a person who chooses to do drugs, let their poor children run the streets and don't take care of themselves do not have the same value in life as the person who does. Isn't that awful? I can't help it though. You can't help them unless they really want it so in the meantime their whole families lives are being torn apart.
I'm so tired of hearing of another person I know dealing with another low blow in their lives. Im tired of hearing of sick children, sick friends, another senseless death. Sometimes I live in fear thinking 'wow...is this going to happen to me or my loved one?'
Now I believe in God and I believe when we live our lives according to His will, HE has set the time for us to go. I also believe that we can step out of His will and die when it really isn't our time. Such as a friend of mine who just OD'd. I don't think it was his time to go. And it makes me angry.
So then I wonder why I live in this fear. I use to not be like this. I know God loves me and would help me even thru the darkest moment in life but I just don't want a moment like that to come! I keep reminding myself that if it's our time, we are going to go regardless if we are home in bed or driving down the road.
I've been reading the book The Shack. Great book. Shows me God in a different way. In a more loving way, rather than a Gandolf way. It's showing me that we don't always understand why he allows things to happen like they do but we don't see the whole picture like He does and we just need to trust. Sometimes I think I'm allowing satan to just destroy my joy and replace it with fear. I hate that I allow that to happen!
In a few weeks time, I lost the one friend to an accidental OD, another found out cancer was back and another tried to commit suicide. Each situation so different and I don't understand a single one. In the meantime, Im going to help my daughter make leaf soup.
Isn't life strange? The places it takes you where you least expect it. The ups and downs. Things can be going great and BAM....something awful happens.
I've been struggling recently with death/life/sickness. Friends I have that are in their early 30's are getting cancer...they have young kids and here they are fighting for their lives. I have friends that started doing drugs in their adulthood and are now either strung out (usually meth or prescription drugs) or OD'd. Them too have young kids and here these parents are throwing their lives away! I have a friend who just tried to kill himself and he too has young kids. I have friends who lost their child to cancer.
Why does it seem that the people who love life, love their family, love to live are the ones who are dealt the lowest blows? Why are the ones who don't care about life, their children, theirselves and don't even bother taking care of themselves are the ones who continue to live? Now Im not suggesting that one life is worth more than another....wait, maybe i am!? I guess I think that a person who chooses to do drugs, let their poor children run the streets and don't take care of themselves do not have the same value in life as the person who does. Isn't that awful? I can't help it though. You can't help them unless they really want it so in the meantime their whole families lives are being torn apart.
I'm so tired of hearing of another person I know dealing with another low blow in their lives. Im tired of hearing of sick children, sick friends, another senseless death. Sometimes I live in fear thinking 'wow...is this going to happen to me or my loved one?'
Now I believe in God and I believe when we live our lives according to His will, HE has set the time for us to go. I also believe that we can step out of His will and die when it really isn't our time. Such as a friend of mine who just OD'd. I don't think it was his time to go. And it makes me angry.
So then I wonder why I live in this fear. I use to not be like this. I know God loves me and would help me even thru the darkest moment in life but I just don't want a moment like that to come! I keep reminding myself that if it's our time, we are going to go regardless if we are home in bed or driving down the road.
I've been reading the book The Shack. Great book. Shows me God in a different way. In a more loving way, rather than a Gandolf way. It's showing me that we don't always understand why he allows things to happen like they do but we don't see the whole picture like He does and we just need to trust. Sometimes I think I'm allowing satan to just destroy my joy and replace it with fear. I hate that I allow that to happen!
In a few weeks time, I lost the one friend to an accidental OD, another found out cancer was back and another tried to commit suicide. Each situation so different and I don't understand a single one. In the meantime, Im going to help my daughter make leaf soup.
Friday, September 12, 2008
New 4-wheelers!
Everyone who lives in the mountains of North Idaho has 4 wheelers. Living here my whole entire life, I've never owned my "own" 4-wheeler. My dad always had one, my mom even has one, my sister has 4! But we never
got around to getting one...until now!
See last winter was straight out of Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer cartoon; The Big One. We had feet and feet of snow and it snowed until June, no kidding. (I always say it was Idaho's way of purging the Californians! HAHA! We did lose some Cs after last winter!) Well, with snow comes shoveling. Now I don't mind shoveling but every hour for months on end?? It was crazy!! Tony works out of state so that left me shoveling thruout the day, then Tommy helped me when he got out of school.
I made the executive decision that this was the year we got a 4-wheeler, WITH a plow. And since we were getting one, we decided to get 3. Up here we use them to play in the mountains, hunt, heck we can even drive them on the roads legally! Now I'm the kind of person that HATES having debt, of any kind. I FREAKED when I bought our house. Great investment and I dont regret it at all, but I tend to be a commitment phobic type person and being tied down for 30 years was a bit overwhelming. I'm so bad that I freaked out when we had to buy a new dishwasher when ours went T.U.
So here we are with 3 4-wheelers. Tommy bought his own. We have some friends who are IMMACULATE and they had a 2001 Yamaha Kodiak 400 with only 2k miles on it. Tommy bought that one. The first one we bought is the 2007 Honda. Its brand new, the dealer had a few left over from last year. 400 Rancher (was ATV of the year!). The plow will be on that one. Then we decided to buy (and this is the one I stress over the most) another guys 2008 Yamaha Grizzly 700 with power steering. It was the most expensive but it was such a great deal we couldnt pass it up. The silver one is the 700, the blue one is my Honda and the red is Tommys.
Of course, I still lose sleep over it. Not sure why. We can afford the payments for 2. The only bills we have is a house payment and the Jeep. Like I said, I hate being in debt and I'm a commitphobic. But we are already having a blast on them. Tony and I each take one of the little kids and off we go. Now if we can only get our elk this year!
got around to getting one...until now!
See last winter was straight out of Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer cartoon; The Big One. We had feet and feet of snow and it snowed until June, no kidding. (I always say it was Idaho's way of purging the Californians! HAHA! We did lose some Cs after last winter!) Well, with snow comes shoveling. Now I don't mind shoveling but every hour for months on end?? It was crazy!! Tony works out of state so that left me shoveling thruout the day, then Tommy helped me when he got out of school.
I made the executive decision that this was the year we got a 4-wheeler, WITH a plow. And since we were getting one, we decided to get 3. Up here we use them to play in the mountains, hunt, heck we can even drive them on the roads legally! Now I'm the kind of person that HATES having debt, of any kind. I FREAKED when I bought our house. Great investment and I dont regret it at all, but I tend to be a commitment phobic type person and being tied down for 30 years was a bit overwhelming. I'm so bad that I freaked out when we had to buy a new dishwasher when ours went T.U.
So here we are with 3 4-wheelers. Tommy bought his own. We have some friends who are IMMACULATE and they had a 2001 Yamaha Kodiak 400 with only 2k miles on it. Tommy bought that one. The first one we bought is the 2007 Honda. Its brand new, the dealer had a few left over from last year. 400 Rancher (was ATV of the year!). The plow will be on that one. Then we decided to buy (and this is the one I stress over the most) another guys 2008 Yamaha Grizzly 700 with power steering. It was the most expensive but it was such a great deal we couldnt pass it up. The silver one is the 700, the blue one is my Honda and the red is Tommys.
Of course, I still lose sleep over it. Not sure why. We can afford the payments for 2. The only bills we have is a house payment and the Jeep. Like I said, I hate being in debt and I'm a commitphobic. But we are already having a blast on them. Tony and I each take one of the little kids and off we go. Now if we can only get our elk this year!
Friday, August 29, 2008
accountability again
yesterday did good. it was cardio... stairs, plyometrics, light weights but cardio style.
today was upper. got the shakes...love the shakes. my whole body is so sore from starting back up. amazing how fast you 'lose' it when you arent doing it everyday!
breakfast was chickenstir fry pizza thing. lunch will be a protein shake with almonds. im craving chocolate!
nice day out today. It's been raining. Got the yard mowed, I love the smell of fresh grass even though it makes me sneeze. Told Tommy today that he has 3 days left of summer vacation before he starts highschool..man this summer went by sooo darn fast!! its CRAZY.
Ok need to feed the rugrats lunch.
today was upper. got the shakes...love the shakes. my whole body is so sore from starting back up. amazing how fast you 'lose' it when you arent doing it everyday!
breakfast was chickenstir fry pizza thing. lunch will be a protein shake with almonds. im craving chocolate!
nice day out today. It's been raining. Got the yard mowed, I love the smell of fresh grass even though it makes me sneeze. Told Tommy today that he has 3 days left of summer vacation before he starts highschool..man this summer went by sooo darn fast!! its CRAZY.
Ok need to feed the rugrats lunch.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Death of a child murderer and rapist
So the Jury has convicted Joseph Duncan to death. I'm not surprised. If anyone deserves to die, its this man. He was convicted (and admitted to) killing a family in Wolf Lodge, Idaho (just a few miles down the road from our town); he killed the mom, her boyfriend and 13 year old son Slade JUST so he could kidnap Dylan (9) and Shasta (8). After taking them to Montana, torturing them, raping them, then killing Dylan, he came back to Coeur d'Alene where Shasta and Duncan were spotted at Dennys restaurant.
He also admitted to killing 2 girls in Seattle, one boy in California. Im sure there were many more. In his own blog he confesses to his heinousness which is why he encrypted his own journal.
What came out in the trial is enough to scare any parent. Duncan had GPS tracking on schools, homes with kids...kids he could kidnap. How do you protect your children from freaks like him? He was let out of jail after serving 20 years for raping a 14 year old boy at gunpoint when he was just 16. Apparently jail is the reason he is seeking revenge. Another victim of society. boohoo. There is a line in Batman Begins spoken by Liam Neeson's character, "Criminals thrive off the indulgence of society's understanding". So true.
Death is too easy for Duncan. Stick him in general population in prison and let the prisoners teach him about not killing little kids. Let him loose to Dylan and Slades dad.
I guess this case hits close to home to me. Things like this don't happen up here in North Idaho. We are a closeknit group, us northies. I have children. Duncan was in my town!
I guess I need to ask God for some forgiveness on the thoughts I have towards Duncan and the things I hope happens to him. My heart hurts for little Dylan for the awful torture he went thru, for losing his life at way too young an age, for Slade for his brutal death, for what Shasta endured, but so thankful that her life was spared.
And God, please get these crazies off the streets and protect our children!
He also admitted to killing 2 girls in Seattle, one boy in California. Im sure there were many more. In his own blog he confesses to his heinousness which is why he encrypted his own journal.
What came out in the trial is enough to scare any parent. Duncan had GPS tracking on schools, homes with kids...kids he could kidnap. How do you protect your children from freaks like him? He was let out of jail after serving 20 years for raping a 14 year old boy at gunpoint when he was just 16. Apparently jail is the reason he is seeking revenge. Another victim of society. boohoo. There is a line in Batman Begins spoken by Liam Neeson's character, "Criminals thrive off the indulgence of society's understanding". So true.
Death is too easy for Duncan. Stick him in general population in prison and let the prisoners teach him about not killing little kids. Let him loose to Dylan and Slades dad.
I guess this case hits close to home to me. Things like this don't happen up here in North Idaho. We are a closeknit group, us northies. I have children. Duncan was in my town!
I guess I need to ask God for some forgiveness on the thoughts I have towards Duncan and the things I hope happens to him. My heart hurts for little Dylan for the awful torture he went thru, for losing his life at way too young an age, for Slade for his brutal death, for what Shasta endured, but so thankful that her life was spared.
And God, please get these crazies off the streets and protect our children!
holding myself accountable log
ok, i need to do this to hold myself acctable.
1130-cottage cheese. coffee off and on all morning.
did lower body but now im freezing so going to treadmill. i refuse to turn on the head in august!
ok- did 10 minutes of treadmilling, 4mph, 8.5%. .64 miles. Also took my fish vitamins. BLUCK..i hate water food. Now I keep burbing up fish...gross!
230pm - ok, had a bowl of my homemade chili. man thats good stuff! i really wish i liked to cook because im actually very good, i just hate doing it! should take another fish vitamin. GROSS
530 - dinner! chicken stirfry with (*sigh*) white rice. I KNOW I KNOW, i shouldntve gone there, but did and it was yummy. enough carbs for the rest of the day!
took my vitamins too...C and 2 more fish. GROSS
1130-cottage cheese. coffee off and on all morning.
did lower body but now im freezing so going to treadmill. i refuse to turn on the head in august!
ok- did 10 minutes of treadmilling, 4mph, 8.5%. .64 miles. Also took my fish vitamins. BLUCK..i hate water food. Now I keep burbing up fish...gross!
230pm - ok, had a bowl of my homemade chili. man thats good stuff! i really wish i liked to cook because im actually very good, i just hate doing it! should take another fish vitamin. GROSS
530 - dinner! chicken stirfry with (*sigh*) white rice. I KNOW I KNOW, i shouldntve gone there, but did and it was yummy. enough carbs for the rest of the day!
took my vitamins too...C and 2 more fish. GROSS
Fitness and staying motivated
Ok, I decided I need to get serious about losing this last 20lbs from my 2-in-a-row pregnancys...especially since my youngest is now 3!! Im going to do the Body For Life program..i always tend to start it, and never finish! man i hate that about myself. Thats definitely something I need to work on. Sticking with it!!
So weighed in this morning at 150 (*sniff!*) and 23.8% bodyfat! YUCK!! Did a lower body workout this morning. Got the leg shakes now. thats good. And my abs are burning, thats good too.
So weighed in this morning at 150 (*sniff!*) and 23.8% bodyfat! YUCK!! Did a lower body workout this morning. Got the leg shakes now. thats good. And my abs are burning, thats good too.
Here is a pic of one of my BOSSI tank tops. I will write more on that later. Just wanted to pimp myself out!LOL
On a side note, it's raining today. Its kinda nice. Going to get some stuff done around the house. Swiffer mop especially. Get rid of the fart smell from my ever so delicate Rottweiler, Valentine. He's a gross pig but sweet. So im going to try to mop up farts! see ya!
On a side note, it's raining today. Its kinda nice. Going to get some stuff done around the house. Swiffer mop especially. Get rid of the fart smell from my ever so delicate Rottweiler, Valentine. He's a gross pig but sweet. So im going to try to mop up farts! see ya!
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